Change has always been something hard for me to deal with. It seems that as each part of my life ends and a new one begins, I start to get all sad and weepy. Yes, always excited for what is next, but knowing that I will never be able to go back to the life that I once had. The past few days I have been experiencing a lot of change, (the whole month actually!) Clark and I moved out of our house yesterday. He is still in the finishing up stages while I came up with Sadie to visit my parents to get out of the way. It was such a bittersweet moment, leaving the house that I have grown to love. We made so many sweet memories there in the year and a half that we lived there. For the next few months we will be making the trek between Scottsboro and Montgomery visiting with our parents. Times are going to be challenging as we continue to grow together as a family of three. We are still learning how to parent this little one. This week has been a tough one. She hasn't slept well, causing us to get no sleep. All the while, we are packing up our house. We think that we are the cause of her being fussy, we have been two stressed people!!!
I wish that I had some great pictures to share this week, but I have barely been able to keep my eyes open much less take some fun pictures of Sadie! Maybe this weekend while I am with my parents we can take some pictures. She is still just as precious as ever, even in all the fussy times!!!
Thanks for your prayers friends, keep them coming. My emotions are still so out of whack and I am trying so hard not to just break down and cry at each moment of the day!!!
By the way, I had great intentions on this being such a great post and now that I am typing as Sadie sleeps, I find myself just trying to get my thoughts out so that I can get a nap before she wakes up!! :) Thanks for understanding and reading anyway!!
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Oh sweetie. (((HUGS))) I remember all too well the feelings you are feeling now. I hated when people said it was mostly hormones, but it really is, on top of all the stress of moving, living with family, etc.
My advice: cry when you need to cry! You may have a few days where you feel like you are crying literally all day, but some days that's just what you need! You need to release it!
Also, if you get a chance, get out for a short walk or drive by yourself. Do it right after you feed her, so you have a good hour at least before you need to be back. Just getting that time alone can really work wonders.
Have Clark or one of your parents watch Sadie so you can take a ridiculously long shower.
Hang in there!! It DOES get better! You WILL fall into a routine. And even if you weren't going through all these changes w/moving and things that you are, you would still feel like just as you got a routine settled, she'd change it. Its normal!
Be flexible with yourself. Throw you expectations of Sadie and parenthood out the window and take each day as it comes, and you'll find yourself falling into a pattern.
You know you can always call/e-me if you need to talk/cry/vent/yell/scream. LOL
We love you!!!
Hey Laura! I would love to see you and Sadie while you are here. I know things are going to be crazy, so there really is NO pressure. But if it looks like there might be a good time, I would love to say hi!
Don't worry about blogging...just get some rest! There will be plenty of time to post pictures later! Hang in there...things will get better, and she will sleep through the night eventually!!
Laura, Thanks so much for your comments on this "Old Lady's" blog. You are so kind. Which made me go immediately to your blog - I haven't been "blog hopping" much lately - busy days. I am so glad to have read yours. Oh Laura - these early baby days. Makes me groan. I'll refrain from advice - because it's a bit outdated. We didn't have babywise. I basically just nursed and rocked and nursed and rocked, and then when that didn't work, I nursed and rocked some more. :-) Depending on which baby it was, because all their temperaments were different, I was very sleep deprived at times. I think new moms need as much nurturing as their new babies do. I went home a lot.
Anyway, so you're in S'boro, huh? I hope you're able to get some rest.
Thanks for your comments. Sadie's pictures are adorable.
Oh Laura! How I remember crying and crying and crying. As my childbirth class instructor put it, "your brain is being bathed in hormones"! Truly. I started getting back to feeling like me around 6 weeks or so. But the worst of it was over in about a month.
I thought there were bed bugs and little parasites everywhere for a week. I was sure of it. I cryed for no reason at all.
Now I call it my "crazy" period. But everybody has to go through it and when its over you'll look back and laugh.
Lots of love!
I want to hug you! We love you, and I'm praying for you every time I think of you (which is a LOT these days!). Take deep breaths, and KNOW that it WILL get easier (kind of!). I'm with your first friend who commented that you should try to let go of your parenting "expectations" and take each day as it comes. AMEN to that! The routine will come... She's still adjusting to being here! All of your mom friends have been where you are... You're doing a great job! Hang in there!
I love, love, love you.
Could you "message" me your mom's mailing address on myspace? I want to send you and Sadie a present!
I am praying girl! All your emotions are completely normal but no fun when you are going through it. Hang in there -- It is just for a short season. Things do get a whole lot better! Rest! Rest! Rest!
--Christy
I SO understand. We had a great day with Cady yesterday..."the routine" seemed to be working and I was so proud. Today...well, not so much. She has been SO cranky. She's exhausted, but she won't sleep and I feel horrible because I can't seem to make her comfortable. And then I just think that we've only just begun :-)
Laura, I just want to echo what everyone else says. Know that everything you are feeling is so normal!! And it does get better. It feels like just yesterday that I was so overwhelmed and mom and Ann and other new moms were telling me that it would get better, but it's so hard to know that in the midst of it. I will pray for sleep. I think sleep helps so much!! Oh, and I can't imagine packing up a house. Can you get rest while at your mom's house? I literally spent the first month either in Scottsboro or mom or Ann were in Atlanta. I needed help!! And I agree, it helps to get out for an hour, or even have someone watch Sadie for an hour or two, and you get where you can't hear her if she cries, and get some sleep!! Oh, those first days are so hard, but I PROMISE, so fleeting.
I have not gotten very far catching up on the blog yet, but I did go back and read "Our Story," and I just wanted to say that it is just beautiful.
You may not remember, but I have met a couple times. Clark's cousin, Suzanne and I are best friends, and her family is like my own and has been for all of my life.
I have always admired Clark, and we have always known that whoever the Lord chose for him would be a very special and fortunate woman, indeed. I remember him seeking God's will and even going to Promise Keepers conventions as a young, single man years ago. He was preparing himself for you before he even knew you existed. That is a wonderful, amazing thing. I am so happy to read your stories on here and to get a feeling for what an amazing person God had chosen for Clark. I knew a little of your story already, but I love reading the details. It gives me goosebumps to hear how God worked so beautifully to bring the two of you together.
Congratulations on the birth of your daughter. Sadie is just adorable. I have seen some of these pictures before from Sandra and Suzanne, but the one of her with the little bonnet in the stroller is just breathtaking. She is a gorgeous baby, and I know that she is bringing everyone a lot of joy.
I hope that you are able to have wonderful visits with all of your family and friends during the coming months, and may God continue to strengthen, bless and reassure you as you make this move.
Much love,
Rebekah
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