I am weak

I read this blog post today and it struck a chord in my heart.  It all spoke to me, but it was the last line that took hold of my heart.  I have always heard it a bit differently.  “He doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.”  I was quickly taken back to my sophomore year of college when the Lord was beginning to give me a heart for the nations.  I knew that I was to apply for a position to go overseas that year and I just didn’t think I could do it.  I even had one friend tell me there was no way that they would pick me because I didn’t have the experience.  And that weekend that I was appointed, I heard the phrase, “He doesn’t call the equipped, he equips the called.”  It stuck with me through many trials while serving overseas.  It was nothing that I could do on my own.  I was never good enough to live in another country to share the gospel.  In fact that is why He has me there, because I wasn’t good enough.

And so today, this applies to my life as a mother, even more so than a missionary overseas. You see, I don’t have the experience, this is my first time to be a mother.  I can remember a few weeks ago, I fell onto my bed in tears as I cried out to God, “I am not good enough, I can’t do this job of being a mom.  It is too hard.  I make too many mistakes.  I yell at my children, I don’t lead them towards you as much as I know that I should.”  And again, I am reminded, he doesn’t call the equipped, he equips the called.    He wants me to be weak, he doesn’t want me to think I have this thing down pat, because if I do, then I don’t need him.  Wow…what a huge thing for me today.  I think before being a mother, I thought it really can’t be that hard.  Oh but it is.  So much harder than so many things that I have experienced in this short life of mine.  But I am so thankful that He is strong in my weakness.  His Grace is sufficient for me.  

Moms, may we remember, He has called us to be weak.  It is in our weakness that He shines out so that our children might see Him.